what a day! so much going on right now... one week from my surgery... my hubby's oldest turns 18yrs old today... and i am trying to call around for donations for my son's school program run san diego... i am stuck on an idea i have for shirts to raise melanoma awareness (just clueless on how to turn these ideas into reality)...
first off, one week from today i will be at the hospital undergoing these next procedures... a resection (wle), and a snlb. i am scared to death... but trying not to be. reminding myself this is to verify i am ned, and hopefully stay that way... then i have my mind that won't shut up... it keeps thinking things like: "maybe it's not just precautionary... maybe they really do see satellite... what if there is something and they choose to only moniter it?" and there is plenty more, but you get the idea. i am trying to be optimistic, but my brain didn't seem to get the memo...
then my little man loves the run san diego program... basically, the kids run laps before school so when the bell rings they have expelled some energy and it is easier for them to focus in class... after 3 laps they earn a mile... and they selected different locations in san diego the kids can pretend they ran to (according to the miles they acquire). that brings us to the part i am trying to coordinate... they are asking for donations from these locations as incentive for the kids... so i am calling around finding out who to forward these letters to... i am pleased to say most places are very interested in supporting the program. but i am disappointed some places i have called were very rude asking me how their location could donate anything when they are already in financial hardship... i get this is tough times everywhere... but my thought is a brochure they already have tons of might generate business to help their establishments. call me crazy...
plus i have ideas to promote melanoma awareness and no idea how to actualize them. i am still waiting for a return call from a foundation i have left several messages for... i even considered making a deal with the devil (my hubby's boss) to actualize them... but i am holding off on that for now. i am hoping for a miracle... somehow, someway to make these ideas happen... but i am getting really frustrated in the meantime. so if any readers out there have any suggestions i would really appreciate them... or if anyone wants to financially back a melanoma awareness campaign let me know... lmao. -can't blame a girl for trying ;)
all in all, it has been a good day so far... just alot on my mind. as you can see by my involvement in little man's school, i like to help... i have always been this way. it makes me happy to help... any way i can... i just need to keep reminding myself that not everyone is like-minded. i will get it someday, until then i continue doing what i can...
You're gonna be just fine. I just know it. I had the WLE and SNB at the same time. I was asleep, didn't feel a thing. When I woke up the only thing that bothered me was a sore throat. Where is your primary? Mine was on my upper chest and it pulled something awful but that was the worst part. You'll be ok, you'll see. Mine had spread to one lymph node, so hopefully yours will come back clean. I'll be thinking of you all day on that day and sending good enery your way. Let's get this over with so you can stop dreading it. I have an internal sonogram tomorrow that I'm a little scared of, but I just want to get it over with already. You are braver than you know!!!
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